Menses

I realise something. I bloat during my pre menstrual cycle, and it was something which is can be seen with the eyes. Initially, I thought I was gaining some weight that my hips are no more that narrow but then, it all change after my menses comes.

Not just that, I thought SKII failed me by giving me lotsofbig juicy pimples, that I can't help squeezing. Now there are ugly marks on my face. Actually it was my hormones.

I am on constraceptive jabs. Had to take it every 3 months and supposedly, according to other people experiences, I will not have my menses at all. I did somehow but the side effect on my side was, I am having pregnancy symtomps. Tender breat, nausea, mood swing, urge to pee rapidly and craving.

At fisr, I thought I was pregnant but then when I did the pregnancy test, I was not.

Weird.

Oh anyway, I am drooling for this pair of nine west gladiator sandals! I am thinking should I or should I not get them. The thing is my budget is a bit tight but if I don't get them, I won't be able to sleep peacefully at night.


or


Hmm.

Plan

I am thinking to quit my job.

And start something on my own!
Thinking about it make me excited already. I am not really cut to work for people because I enjoy doing things at my own time.

This will not be easy, but I will give my best effort. Or else, no income, which will make me feel worst. I can't depend and rely on Phabmister solely. He needs to entertain himself too especially when he is working hard to earn that money.

So yeah. Wait and see :)

Whinehouse

This is yet another whining entry.

I want to get out from this country, from this life. I know I am supposed to be thankful but yeah, here I am writing all this.

It sucks to be stuck in this situation where I have to go to work :P although I know that I am not supposed to feel this way. But, I did, I did stressed that this is not the life that I want.

I want to own my own place and I don't want to see the people I know now. Wait, this sounds like I want death to come to me isn't it?

Don't knowlah. If only I am capable to make things happen on my own, it will happen long time ago.

Argh. I am stressed out. I can't tell anyone because making people upset is not a nice thing to do.