In need

I am in need of a job. Simply because I need to fulfill my desire for shopping.

I am sick and tired of waiting for other people to provide me with things which is also not unfair because my taste are no mediocre. I appreciate and love fine things in life and those things does not come free nor cheap.

I want a skinny jeans
I want a pair or leather flat ballerina, not from vincci
I want tonnes of clothing.
I want new handbag, and with distinguish name.

The problem is, no one wants to hire me and that's is bruising my ego and not to mention my self esteem.

Well actually they are already shattered.

I hate to say this but sometimes I wish I did not make certain decisions that I made.
I wish I can say I hate you out loud.