Trouble

I don't know where else to go.

I am doing my on business now and I am thinking to expand it. The thing is I need some capital. So I was thinking maybe I could get some from dad and I told mom about it.

The thing is, she looked reluctant and she didn't even look at me. And then I get him.

He still owe her some money and we are still living in her house, almost for free. And I feel so humiliated.

I feel so bad. I am start to think this was a mistake.
Perhaps I should not be where I am now.

I know I am a bad person but I do hope God save His mercy for me. Pleaselah.

See the world

I want to go and see the world and I don't want to do it when I am already old, hardly walking. I want to see cultures and fashion and oh, the food too.

The question is when? How?

When are all my dreams will come true?

Sad. Sad.

Ok, I'll be patient but I don't know till how long can I stay and I am counting the time. Within 3 years from now, things MUST get better. MUST because I want to raise a child and I don't want to deal and live with all this shittiness anymore.

So what is they don't?

Just say, I have my plan already and a track record.

I don't like

I hate getting phone calls or sms from banks or credit cards company telling me that this is due and that is due when it's not even mine. It is distracting and making me feel bad. And annoyed. I don't want to know that certain certain person fail to pay their debts or whatsoever.

Can they stop calling me already?

Or should I change my number?

Summer

The summer is on.

It is time for maxi dress and floral prints. I can go with floral prints but maxi dress? Perhaps it's because I am vertically challenged. Still I think this dress is to die for!

Hmm. Maybe I would reconsider.

And oh, we also have jumpsuit! The last time I remember wearing jumpsuit as the in thing was back in 1995. And now it's back again.

Which reminded me of a patterned jumpsuit my mom custom maid for me when I was 14. I felt so fugly back then but for all you know, they are the in thing now.

And of course by now, you should realise the existence of the gladiator sandals if you are a fashionista.

I love the one that is shown here. The thing is, everywhere I go, I will see women adorning the gladiator sandals and that is a turn off. I know it's the in thin but everybody? Come on!

What else? Oh polka dots!

I love the design of the swimsuit too, make you look curvier.

So now you know what to buy to be "in" the crowd.

Check up

I got my continual medication today, 2 days late than the usual date. The dr said it should be fine but I am skeptical although I know she is the dr.

Anyway, she asked me to do a self breast check up when my menses end. What is she trying to say, that the medication she gave me might contribute to cancer?

Or maybe I am the one who is paranoid?

Menstrual comes again

Now that I take the contraceptive jab, my menses had gone haywired. My previous menses ended a week a go and now it's back again. Not only with the cramp but with the bloated tummy and pimples!

Big ugly juicy pimples.

And my mood swings is having double action.

I am going to see my g.p tomorrow for another jab, also to consult her regarding this matter. It is tiring to have menstrual this frequent and menstrual means no sex.

That can leads to triple action mood swing.

My worries

I sometimes found myself telling people to keep holding on to their love. Although many years ago, I experienced the feeling of being out of love.

I love that guy, to me he was everything and I was pretty sure that we will end up together. Yet the dreams were shattered when he can't provide me with my needs. That time was presence and security. I admit, I am not an easy person to handle. Especially back then.

I left him not too long. Can't really see why should I hang on any longer.

I am more matured now, I changed too. But how can I save myself from falling out of love again?

At times I keep asking myself, is this how my life going to be? Bury in worries and convincing myself, once I take the huge step, it should be forever? I know I can still go on like this, at least for now. But the little flickering treacherous feeling might spread, not to soon I hope.

I pray to God so that it will always stay. I do.

But I don't know, maybe He is trying to punish the little selfish girl in me.

I am so sorry.

In the end

I am in the midst of baking pound cheesecake when the mixer broke down. I had to use my own energy to beat them up. Not only that, I set the temperature too high and now the cake is burn!
My poor cake!

Yes I am a housewife again. But this time I figured I can not rely on other people who can only promise to make things better but didn't happen or work out in the end. I know I sounded bitter, because honestly I am. I was told I would be given some money if I quit but I foresee that it will not come true, looking at the current situation. Well words are just words. As much as I loathe them, that is just out of my control. Unless, I demand for my freedom which is.. let say give it sometimes. Like I use to say to people, if you are not happy about anything, do something about it.

Well, I am going to start something on my own. I am not sure whether or not it will turn out to be ok but I just have to try.

Ok, gotto check the cake.

Fatty Crab

At this moment, I am craving for chilli crabs from fatty crab. Oh my goodness, I can taste the succulent crab in my mouth already.

There are two branches of the restaurant that I know of but my favourite is in the mines. Reason being the ambiance, next to the lake and somehow my taste bud told me that the crabs that they served there are fresher than the other branch. It might be just me, still I prefer to come to the mines. Plus, the other branch seemed not to have asparagus and some other veggies much to my disappointment. I love their buttered asparagus, minus the scallops or whatever they offered to put in.

And oh, the gravy is so nice that you would not even want to waste even a small portion of it. Usually, I will order some bread to be dipped into the gravy. As I am writing this, I am trying my best not to salivate and it is almost impossible not to do so.

I think, I might just go there today. Hihi

Dry skin

I just realised today that I have cracked elbow. OK, well, not really crack but the skin is peeling!!! My dehydration is getting worst. And I thought, my skin is improving!

The truth is, I haven't been drinking lots of water lately, partly because I seemed to forget and another part is because I seemed to be having bloatness, making my tummy look full and round. I don't want to be mistaken for a pregnant lady.

Speaking of which, more and more my friends are getting baby. Well, the truth is I want one but I am so scared thinking about labour, I am scared that I would not be a good mother [there's a possibility there] and financially, I am not stable yet. Although I don't know whether or not the $ factor is going to be resolved. Haih.

Back to my skin problem. New resolutions: - to drink lots of water and if I can, to go for body spa.

Please I am noly at my late twenties, I still can preserve my looks, thank you.

Menses

I realise something. I bloat during my pre menstrual cycle, and it was something which is can be seen with the eyes. Initially, I thought I was gaining some weight that my hips are no more that narrow but then, it all change after my menses comes.

Not just that, I thought SKII failed me by giving me lotsofbig juicy pimples, that I can't help squeezing. Now there are ugly marks on my face. Actually it was my hormones.

I am on constraceptive jabs. Had to take it every 3 months and supposedly, according to other people experiences, I will not have my menses at all. I did somehow but the side effect on my side was, I am having pregnancy symtomps. Tender breat, nausea, mood swing, urge to pee rapidly and craving.

At fisr, I thought I was pregnant but then when I did the pregnancy test, I was not.

Weird.

Oh anyway, I am drooling for this pair of nine west gladiator sandals! I am thinking should I or should I not get them. The thing is my budget is a bit tight but if I don't get them, I won't be able to sleep peacefully at night.


or


Hmm.

Plan

I am thinking to quit my job.

And start something on my own!
Thinking about it make me excited already. I am not really cut to work for people because I enjoy doing things at my own time.

This will not be easy, but I will give my best effort. Or else, no income, which will make me feel worst. I can't depend and rely on Phabmister solely. He needs to entertain himself too especially when he is working hard to earn that money.

So yeah. Wait and see :)

Whinehouse

This is yet another whining entry.

I want to get out from this country, from this life. I know I am supposed to be thankful but yeah, here I am writing all this.

It sucks to be stuck in this situation where I have to go to work :P although I know that I am not supposed to feel this way. But, I did, I did stressed that this is not the life that I want.

I want to own my own place and I don't want to see the people I know now. Wait, this sounds like I want death to come to me isn't it?

Don't knowlah. If only I am capable to make things happen on my own, it will happen long time ago.

Argh. I am stressed out. I can't tell anyone because making people upset is not a nice thing to do.

Aqua Physic

I have been using SKII for more than a month now.So far I am happy with what it had done to my complexion.

The most famous product for SKII is The Facial Essence aka The miracle Water. The name explains everything, it is miracle alright! I remember how dull and even my complexion used to look like but after using it for more than a month, my skin tone is now even.

Did I tell you that my skin was dehydrated too? The surface was rough and you could see some of the skin were screaming out trying to break free from the surface. So sad, not to mention ugly :(.

Then I decided to try Aqua Physic serum. Supposedly, I have to purchase the Aqua Physic gel too but since I am under a tight budget, I only managed to grab the serum.

Only after 2 weeks, the rough skin was gone. Still, they are few stubborn piled up dead cell left.
I was thinking to go for their facial next months. Well, it will all depends on my budget.

Hopefully. I can get my hands on the gel too.

Clear skin, here I come.

New skin care

I am currently changing my skincare to sk II. So far I tried the facial cleanser and the famous FT Essence.

Well, the Ft essence is good. It makes the skin colour even but I am still having flaky skin. Hmm maybe I should try their hydrating range Aqua physic

Oh, I also ordered the eye treatment film because my eyes really need S.O.S

Will update the outcome!

Toothache

I am having a toothache. It hurts so much.

Maybe it's time to visit the dentist.

Making pancakes

Since Phabmister has started working, I thought I want to be encourage him by becoming a good wife. First step, is to prepare him breakfast.

Hmm. Actually my choices were quite limited because ermm, my skill is limited? But since I love pancake I decided to try making some. Found a recipe and altered it to my taste.

Original Pancake

• 2 cups plain flour
• 3 teaspoons baking powder
• 2 1/2 tablespoons caster sugar
• 1 1/2 cups milk
• 2 eggs
• 60g butter, melted, cooled
• extra melted butter, for cooking


Method

1. Sift flour and baking powder into a large bowl. Stir in sugar.
   



2. Whisk milk, eggs and butter together. Add to flour mixture. Use a wooden spoon to mix until well combined. Cover and stand batter for 15 minutes.
   



3. Heat a non-stick frying pan over medium heat. Brush pan with a little extra butter.
   



4. Pour 1/3 cup of batter into pan and use a spoon to spread batter out to a 12cm (diameter) circle. Reduce heat to low. Cook for 2 to 3 minutes, or until bubbles start to appear on surface. Turn and cook for a further 2 minutes, or until cooked through.
   



5. Wrap pancake in a clean tea towel to keep warm. Repeat with remaining batter, greasing pan in between pancakes.
   

Well, initially I did not melt the butter thus making the batter thick and uneven.I had to throw them away and make a second one, exactly according to the instruction.

I must say, it taste better than any pancake you can get from your nearest breakfast restaurant. The pancake goes well with butter and honey. I am thinking to use maple syrup next. Maybe marmalade for phabmister since he loves marmalade so much.

Anyway my point is, hello world, I now can cook pancake!

To buy or not to buy

I am confused.

I saw a good deal of SK II product on ebay. The problem lies with the price, it is too cheap for a genuine SK II product.I contacted the seller and she assured me that it's an authentic product and she got a good rating from her previous buyer. Sounds too good to be true.

Now should I or should I not buy the product?

Also, any review on Olay product for dry skin?

Whoever read this, please help.

Hainanese Chicken Rice

Since today is Sunday, I decided to cook hainanese chicken rice based on a recipe that I found at recipezaar, but the recipe was improvised according to my instinct and my taste.

The recipe may look intricate but trust me , it's quite easy and not to mention delicious too.

Ingredients

For the rice

• 3 cups long grain rice
• 2 tablespoons chicken fat, with skin (I know..but it makes the rice taste really good)
• 2 tablespoons water
• 2-3 cm ginger, grated
• 3-4 garlic clove, grated
• 1-2 teaspoon salt (to taste)
• 3 1/2 cups chicken stock, according to rice package instructions (or more, reserved from chicken that you will boil)
• 2 screwpine leaves (optional..it will make the rice more fragrant)

Hainanese chicken

• 1 whole chicken
• Chicken feet or chicken bones
  
• water, enough for boiling chicken
• 1 piece thumb sized ginger, smashed
• 4-5 garlic clove, peeled and smashed slightly
• 1 teaspoon salt
• A bowl (small) of ground nuts.
  

Chilli garlic sauce for dipping

• 10 fresh red chilies
• 2 cm piece ginger
• 4 garlic clove
• 1/4 teaspoon salt
• 1 teaspoon lime juice
• 2 tablespoons chicken stock (from the boiled chicken. This stock is essential for the chilli sauce)

Ginger sauce for dipping

• 75 g ginger
• 6 garlic clove
• 1/2 teaspoon salt
• 1 teaspoon lime juice
• 2 tablespoons chicken stock (again stock from the boiled chicken)

Sauce for chicken

• 1 tablespoon garlic oil
• 1 teaspoon sesame oil
• 5 tablespoons light soya sauce
• 1 1/2 tablespoons sugar (to taste)
• 3 tablespoons chicken broth (from boiled chicken)

Garnishing

• fresh coriander leaves
• sliced spring onion
• sliced cucumber

  
  

Directions

1. First of all wash the rice then place it on to a tea towel or colander to dry. Then, prepare the chicken.Bring enough water to boil in a large pot.Once boil, add in the salt, ginger,garlic, chicken feet and chicken. Lower the heat and cook chicken for about 20 - 25 minutes, uncovered. It is very important to boil the chicken very slowly over low flame.Turn of flame and cover the pot. Allow the chicken to steep inside for another 20-25 minutes. Remove chicken and immerse it into a basin of cold water for 5-6 minutes.Take chicken out and drain in a colander to drip dry before cutting it into serving pieces.




2. While the chicken is drip drying, prepare the rice.Heat up wok and add in the chicken fat and water.Bring to a low simmering boil until oil is released from the fat. Add in the ginger and garlic and fry well (without burning the garlic) Remove and discard the chicken fat and skin. Add in the rice that has been dried and salt and stir fry briskly about 1 - 2 minutes.Transfer rice into an electric rice cooker or pot. Add in the chicken broth from the boiled chicken together with the screwpine leaves if using.If cooking in a pot, cook over low flame stirring occasionally so as not to let the bottom of the rice burn.Boil until rice is cook. There remaining of the chicken stock could be made into soup, add the ground nuts and salt to taste.
   




3. While the rice is cooking, you can prepare the chilli garlic sauce. Just add all ingredients into a blender or food processor, and give it a good whizz, until ingredients are well blended. Adjust the seasoning with more salt or sugar to taste.The chili garlic sauce can be kept in the refrigerator for about 2-3 days only.




4. To prepare the ginger sauce is the same.give the ingredients a good whiz in the blender.What gives the extra oomph for the sauces is the stock from the chicken broth -- so, do not omit this ingredient.




5. Lastly combine all the ingredients for the chicken sauce and pour it all over the cut up chicken. You can add more soya sauce and chicken broth to the chicken if you prefer. Just adjust the taste of the sauce with soya sauce and chicken broth.If you do not have garlic oil,you can fry a few cloves of garlic in oil for few minutes then take out oil and garlic pour it into a jar, and let the garlic steep inside the oil.




6. Finally, garnish the chicken with the coriander leaves, spring onions and cucumbers. Serve the soup (without or without chicken feet).
   




7. Enjoy meal with the rice and dipping sauces!

You can serve salad with tomato and cucumber for vegetables. Or just fry mustard greens with garlic and oyster sauce.

If you love hainanese chicken rice, this is a must try. I love the simplicity of the taste yet so delicious. And it's easy to prepare even for a novice like me.

The result everyone was satisfied and help themselves with second serving.

I hope there will be enough for tonight.

Happy!

My prayer was answered today. What was it? That's for me to keep ;)

But for now I am thankful and off I go to pray, so that more wishes will be granted.

I am happy!!!

Ruin my mood

Remember this piece?




I pre-ordered it from Elevist, paid and wait patiently because I simply adore this piece. Instead today I received an email saying that it is out of stock!!

This is the second time Elevist let me down, the first time was when they lost my clothes during shipping.

How bad is that?

I am in need of a new cloth and now that simply ruin my mood!

Loving someone

It is funny when you list down the criteria for your dream guy and ended settling with not what you wanted.

You thought that you could not settle for less and you are sure of that but when he came, you start to reanalyse. Sure he doesn't fit the criteria but he's a nice man. How easy it is to find a nice man nowadays?

Sometimes it is a wise decision to go for someone who really adores you rather than you crazily in love with them. Well, I am not saying that you shouldn't have any feeling for them, you should at least some.

Because if everything fail, you would not get hurt that much and when it's time to walk away, you can walk without turning back.

I am no ice queen, I only speak the truth although I know lots of people objected. I am sick of being a sick stupid puppy and at the end of the day just ignored, taken for granted and left behind.

But there's one thing that I can not deny. Despite the fact that I am not entirely happy and I have to bear for a little while (the duration is actually unknown and uncertain), I love him.

I do.

In need

I am in need of a job. Simply because I need to fulfill my desire for shopping.

I am sick and tired of waiting for other people to provide me with things which is also not unfair because my taste are no mediocre. I appreciate and love fine things in life and those things does not come free nor cheap.

I want a skinny jeans
I want a pair or leather flat ballerina, not from vincci
I want tonnes of clothing.
I want new handbag, and with distinguish name.

The problem is, no one wants to hire me and that's is bruising my ego and not to mention my self esteem.

Well actually they are already shattered.

I hate to say this but sometimes I wish I did not make certain decisions that I made.
I wish I can say I hate you out loud.

Stress buster

I am swarmed with lots of thing making it not possible to update. You can say that I am all stress up.

Speaking of which, what are your stress comforter? Husbands or significant others cannot be included!

Here are mine..

1. Soaking in tub with scented candle
   
   
   
   But I prefer with the light on so I can read, not to say books but more to fashion magazines!



2. Watch some chic flicks
   
   
   
   Really helped me to clear up my mind. And I will be happy at the end.
   



3. Go for window shopping
   
   
   
   It is ok if I don't buy anything, just browsing through already give me the exhilaration but if I buy something, even a tiny card, that would be enough to lift my spirit again.



4. Pig on chocolates
   
   
   
   I love godiva, baci, patchi and rocky road(cadbury australia). It may sounds cliche but chocolate works as a stress buster for me.

Those are some that I can think about at this moment. What about yours?

Verdict

I've tried cooking the onion ring, it was not bad at all. Maybe I could add more flavour to it, using the mixture of onion and garlic seasoning perhaps?

On the other hand, I am feeling a bit down. My applications were mostly rejected. Am I that bad? I can feel my self esteem is going down the drain. I wish I could share with someone but sometimes the person who available doesn't seemed to be a suitable candidate. I need someone who is truly proving their words, now that's comfort.

But I am not going to give up nor sit down, do nothing and wait for things to happen.

Onion ring recipes

I am having a craving for onion rings. Especially adore the ones at a&w. The taste is simply yummy and addictive.


I even found the recipe for it.

Ingredients

* 1 cup McCormick Golden Dipt Tempura batter mix
* 1/4 teaspoon onion powder
* 1/8 teaspoon ground black pepper
* 1/2 cup water
* 1/4 cup beer
* 1 extra large white onion, sliced 3/8" thick
* 6 cups vegetable oil in your deep fryer

Directions

1. Preheat the deep fryer to 375F
2. Combine the tempura mix with the spices and liquid to make a
3. batter using a fork. There will be some small lumps; don't worry
4. about those.
5. Slice the onion, and separate all of the rings.
6. Dip the individual rings in the batter, and drop into the
7. preheated oil. Deep fry 3−5 minutes until golden brown. Remove
8. to a paper towel lined plate, salt lightly, and serve hot.

Taken from:grouprecipes.com

Now, the recipes look scrumptious but they two things that bothered me. I don't think McCormick Golden Dipt Tempura batter mix is available here and I don't know how to substitute it. Second, the recipes uses beer, which annulled everything.

So I looked for another recipe and found this

Home made onion ring

Ingredients
# 1 egg
# 1/4 cup vegetable oil
# 1 cup milk
# 1 cup flour
# 1/2 teaspoon salt
# 1 teaspoon baking powder
# 2 large sweet onion, sliced
# 1/2 cup flour (for coating onions)
# oil (for frying)

Directions

1. Mix egg, oil, and milk on low speed of mixer for 1 minute.

2. Add dry ingredients and mix until smooth.

3. Coat onions in flour.

4. Dip in batter.

5. Fry in hot oil 375* until desired shade of brown.

Taken from:RecipeZaar

Pretty simple isn't it? But the most important stuff, the ingredients are available here. Plus, this recipe received good reviews in the website. 5 stars!

I am going to try it soon to see whether or not it receive perfect stars.
And then I shall put my own review.

Why about you? Don't you want to try?

Time bomb

I am like a time bomb.



Quiet, minding my own business and sucking it up to myself. Why should I tick aloud when the other party would not do anything, or worst will make me end up feeling like shit because I try to let it out.

That's ok. I have my own term and my own time. You probably would not know because after all that happen to me, I am good at keeping things to myself, concealing my feeling. But like the time bomb, I will keep ticking and ticking until the time comes.

Bomb!

Call me selfish. Yes I am but at least I acknowledge what I want far before I seal the deal and that time, I was told it was ok to want what I want, to feel what I feel.

How do I feel right now?

You pulled me under,
If I had to give in.
Such a beautiful myth,
That's breaking my skin.
Well I'll hide all the bruises,
I'll hide all the damage that's done.
But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone.

I love this piece by James Morrison and now when I hear it, everything make sense.

God, please give me strength, please pull me in!

Wish list

I figure out I need a wish list. In case someone who knows me read this, that person could be so generous to get my at least one of them. Ha Ha!

Feeling scared now?

Because I mean it.

1. Fendi. B. Fendi watch
   
   
   
   
   Price: Approx USD550 or RM1925
   
   Why do I want it: I love the design and I need a watch



2. Nokia N96
   
   
   
   Price: Approx USD800 or RM2800
   
   Why do I want it: Love the look, sleek and sexy. Oh yes, I need a new phone too
   



3. Tiffany & co charm icons lock charm bracelet (for clearer picture please view the widget)
   
   
   
   
   Price: Approx USD600 or RM2100
   
   Why do I want it: I love Tiffany & co and would really want a charm bracelet
   



4. Gucci Indy Medium Top Handle
   
   
   
   Price: Approx USD2980 or RM10430 (please don't faint yet)
   
   Why do I want it: Need I say more? Breathtaking!
   

View my wish list on Wishpot »

Ok. That's all, for now. He He!

I shall wait if the fairygodmother would bring me any of those items. Although the chances are quite slim but there's no harm hoping :P

Somehow I can post any title to my entry anymore. The title part in blogger just disappear, I wonder where does it goes to?

Truth is I am feeling kind of lonely right now. Empty. And I have a burden that I am carrying at this moment, I wish I could type it here but it is somewhat personal.

But one question though, how can men be so convincing that you were so convinced that you ended wearing a ring. But later they turn out to be not the same as you thought they were?

And how can you get out of the situation?

I need something to cheer me up. I know, I will go shopping. Yes. Followed by a session of Al-Waqiah recital. It was said that reciting it every night, one will never life in poverty.

Actually I just need some comfort, from Him of course.

Which one would you rather choose?

1. A husband who is a workaholic, you give you all the money that you want in this world which also include Prada, Manolos and all those eye popping handbags but on the other hand doesn't care much, sometimes neglect you and doesn't make you feel special at all.


or


2. A husband who is lazy and prefer to stay at home, yet always pamper you with love, attention and treated you like no one else exist. On the other hand, the material wise are not so lucrative. You get to shop, once in a while but not really feeling the touch of Tom Ford nor Lagerfeld.
   
   

You can't choose to mix some of the elements of the two. Just one.

Don't asked me which one, I am asking you.

I admit that I was a huge fans of Spice Girls. Was. Forgive me, I was young that time. One of the members are Victoria Beckham or then known as Victoria Adams aka Posh Spice. To me she looked more scary then Scary Spice especially when she smile. But you know what? She is even scarier this days.

Victoria Becham is so super skinny and her tits looks so face. And her fashion sense? Aaaaahh!! Scary! Just look at her fake boobs, guarantee to pop any eyes any time. Not poppoing out of excitement but out of horror.

The ghost of fake boobies will suffocate you with her boobs. Beware!

She also looks a bit manly,more like a drag queen or should I say pondan?

Just take a look at these. Weird and not flattering, not even a bit.

Is that your curtain? Or perhaps your bedspread?



I actually love the high skirt but the gloves? Remind me of Mariko from Maero Attack



Like OMG, I need to send David a present. I know, just wrap me up and send me to him!

But. I have to say this. The dress she wore by Marc Jacobs for Marc Jacobs show was simply stunning. I love it the moment I saw it.

Please ignore the oh-so-fake boobies. Focus on the dress



Simply stunning!

Let just hope she won't have any daughter. I have seen enough fake boobies already!

You know, I am never really get to use to being married. The status I mean. I know lots of people would be more than happy to acknowledge that they are happily married, especially if they are girls. There is nothing wrong with that it just that I can't just bring myself to admit that I am married.

Like, I still get invitations from guys for dates, movies and whatnot. And sometimes it make me want to scream when they hints for my status, because I just can't admit the truth nor lie.

"Who are going to the movie with this weekend? Your boyfriend maybe?"

That was a message from a guy in facebook.

Don't get me wrong ya, I am quite content with my current situation or my feelings towards phabmister is just that... I don't know. Maybe because by telling people I am married, they would lost interest in me? Sound stupid but maybe I am.

Or maybe I just want to keep my privacy to myself. Virtual people need not to know what's really going on in my life, exception for this blog of course since I think no one is reading.

I am not to sure but one thing that I am sure about, I have to create a diversion so that I would not

a) Lie
b) Tell the truth

How odd does that sound?

Fava Beans Recipe

Ok. I might not be an expert in cooking event the fact that I love food so much. But today I am going to write down a recipe for fava beans or also known as foul medammas. Bear in mind this is an Asian recipes with lots of spices.

First. How the hell does this fava beans look like?

Like this.



This is by kimball. Actually I didn't know that they sell fava beans in Malaysia because we always bought ours from Singapore but the other day phabmister found this at one of the local store. One can can serve up to 4 people.

Ok, ok enough of ramblings. Back to the recipe.

The Ingredients:

200g minced meat
2 spoons of blended chillies
2 spoons of chicken curry powder
6 shallots - blend
3 onions- blend
1 inch of ginger -blend

For Garnishing:

1 red onion, diced
1 tomato, diced
2 green chillies - cut into small pieces
2 red chillies - cut into small pieces

First, crush the beans into a coarse paste then put aside. Heat the pan with some oil. Add shallots, onion, ginger, curry powder and blended chillies together, mix well. When the mixture is ready, add minced meat and add little bit of water. Cook till the meat gets tender.

By this time, you can smell the delicious aroma made from the spices.Like yumm!

When the meat is ready, put the fava beans in and stir. Add some salt to taste. Then serve.

Now we come to the eggs. Break the eggs and fried them sunny side up. Later, put each egg on top of the serving plates.

For the rest of the garnishing, sautee or cooked them in a pan with olive oil. Make sure that they are not over cooked, or else they might not taste that nice. When done, put them on top of the egg, or just arranged them nicely on the plate.

For more idea on how it will look like.



Have them with baguette, two scoops will be enough to feed a hungry person. And it's good for diet too!

Shopping for make up online

Buying make up in Malaysia is not a hassle except the price might be a little bit expensive and of course, you could not get certain brands.

Like NARS.






I love Nars especially the eyeshadow. Somehow the to me the quality is similar to MAC and I love them both. Maybe my love for MAC are more for powder/foundation product. Good coverage with (almost) natural look. Hehe

The closet place to buy NARS is maybe in Bangkok but now anyone can buy NARS product online with shipping cost at $5.95 flat which is approximately RM 21 per shipping. That, can be considered cheap if you compare to any other websites.

Oh, which website you ask?

kissandmakeupny.com

They also have the famous hairproduct Frederic Fekkai and Laura Mercier.

That, if you don't mind paying for the shipping fee. If you want a free shipping for buying beauty good try Strawberrynet.

Products ranging from Chanel to Payot to MAC. The drawback is, not all products are available. I wanted to buy La Mer sets last time and contacted their customer service but unfortunately it was out of stock or maybe more like never selling actually, because I never see any. Still, it's free shipping and it's cheaper. If you are a regular customer, they provide loyalty program.

In my past experience, strawberrynet give an excellent service.

Go and try, for the love of make-up!

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Kill me faster

I haven't been smoking for months since my birthday. I am not proud to say that I used to smoke but the feeling I get after few puffs are.. just indescribable. The remedy for my bogged mind and lost spirit. But, after my skin condition worsen, I decided to put a halt. I really need a good complexion. Mine is screaming like a lunatic. Aaaaaaaarghh with the capital A.

Yet tonight, I did it again. While putting on my home-made cucumber eye patch, I have the sudden urge. Actually there were few factors that triggered it. Stress and weird feeling. Nah, let's not go there.

Truly that was not something good. I don't judge people who smoke coz I used to smoke but this is in my personal contact. i need to stay away from doing it because.. err..err.. because I want to live a healthy lifestyle? Or something like that. You knoww.. sheesh I think you know what I mean.



Sigh.

See my point?

But how can one ignore when one is in need?

Exactly.

Fret not, I am going to fight it. Ok, I mean I will try my best to fight it. Hehe

Going local

Living in Malaysia, the choice for online shopping is limited. I drooled to shop from shops like Neiman Marcus and Sephora yet the delivery cost and the tax would be far from worthy. Plus, some of them don't ship internationally.

But I have found few locals shop that are a feast for my eyes and my hunger. Ok, perhaps the quality is not at the par but still they manages to make me to have sleepless nights.

Now, these are taken from the latest elevist.com pre-order collection.





I simply adore this one. Although I might be blinded by the sexy models, but this tops mesmerize me. Love the sequins and love how it falls on the shoulder. Oh, off shoulders are the sexist. Showy but not too showy. This top could also go with skinny jeans.

This would be a perfect outfit for casual evening dinner with friends and to hit the club when the night comes.

But I must say I am thinking to wear them during the day. Ha ha!





Now the second that is much simpler yet I love the idea of sheer and having it off shoulder. This one is also not too showy, also highlight your feminine side. A belt would make her look like a fashionista!

I am still thinking whether or not the retails would be possible. They are cheap yes but I still would opt for quality. But what the heck for the price, why not just buy it?